Twenty Seven
OMM’s Law
8-8-18
As I write my name and other details in the hospital, I pressume of the details I wrote.
All information were blurred except for the age. It is embossed, highlighted and almost in gothic font. I can’t stop but image the moment. I am now twenty seven years old but contention is yet to be achieved. A lot of dreams are yet to be fulfilled and even the slightest magnitde haven’t hit the intensity of success.
The perspective of luminosity for me is Family, Life’s Health, Love Life and Financial Stability. With these sectors coming into play, I would have fonder success on financials but I can’t seem to point out if I am really there.
Contention haven’t hit me for all those avenues except to the family part.
Life’s Health would really be crazy as I have scoliosis. I still remember my supposed to be first job in HCG wherein I am perfectly qualified for the postion but they have turned me down after knowing that I have scoliosis. My world breakdown and my knees almost colapse like my hearts gonna stop. Thanks to my mentor’s approach and only to find out that the company will require me to inspect toilet bowls that it why I need to do some lifting jobs and scoliosis condition is not allowed on all engineer. This is a form of discrimination but it’s also for the employees so in the end (after 3 months) I have understand. Of course windows have open and much mo better like an apprentice ship management post in Unilever.
Love Life.. this is the section that I have yet to explore. I haven’t love for a very long time. I think I haven’t love someone else before even though I have six(6) relationships ranging from 1 month to 6 months. Now I understand that most of it was lust or infatuation for lust. With me watching porns all the time I really think that all of it was pure lust. My mind may thought that everything would start from lust, then friendship and love but none of these flow process happen. Its all lust, lust and lust. After the lust fade out then it’s all bad goodbyes. Fast forwards to the current set-up I started to experiment but nothing seems to work. I am expecting serendipity but when will I know if that is serendipity? Will serendipity lead the way and bring the perfect person in front of me? I am an auditor or just call it inspector, I check the movements, action, motions and others. I have set the qualities and expectation I would want for the person but will that person like me back? That is the uncertain question I dare to ask. If that person ask me back then everything clicks, I will still perform a continuous test. And if I see cracks then Its all over. I ask someone while walking on the pavement; Will you be angry if your other half cheat on you? The response is out standing.. My friend said without hesitation that hearts will be broken but definitely chances will be given. In my perspective, its is like safety that will always be non-negotiable. The song I hear today reminds of the every people’s experiences. I get so excited hearing sorrowful arrogance inside a song, it’s like they are boasting their misery and they are glad they moved on and experience the unimaginative scenario that only the strongest and willing people to be vulnerable can experience. Someday I might risk. Risk on the person I believe would be mine; Risk on a person that would wants me for the longest time.
Oh its my turn for the doctor’s checkup lets continue this the next time.
#checkup
OMM’s Law
8-8-18
As I write my name and other details in the hospital, I pressume of the details I wrote.
All information were blurred except for the age. It is embossed, highlighted and almost in gothic font. I can’t stop but image the moment. I am now twenty seven years old but contention is yet to be achieved. A lot of dreams are yet to be fulfilled and even the slightest magnitde haven’t hit the intensity of success.
The perspective of luminosity for me is Family, Life’s Health, Love Life and Financial Stability. With these sectors coming into play, I would have fonder success on financials but I can’t seem to point out if I am really there.
Contention haven’t hit me for all those avenues except to the family part.
Life’s Health would really be crazy as I have scoliosis. I still remember my supposed to be first job in HCG wherein I am perfectly qualified for the postion but they have turned me down after knowing that I have scoliosis. My world breakdown and my knees almost colapse like my hearts gonna stop. Thanks to my mentor’s approach and only to find out that the company will require me to inspect toilet bowls that it why I need to do some lifting jobs and scoliosis condition is not allowed on all engineer. This is a form of discrimination but it’s also for the employees so in the end (after 3 months) I have understand. Of course windows have open and much mo better like an apprentice ship management post in Unilever.
Love Life.. this is the section that I have yet to explore. I haven’t love for a very long time. I think I haven’t love someone else before even though I have six(6) relationships ranging from 1 month to 6 months. Now I understand that most of it was lust or infatuation for lust. With me watching porns all the time I really think that all of it was pure lust. My mind may thought that everything would start from lust, then friendship and love but none of these flow process happen. Its all lust, lust and lust. After the lust fade out then it’s all bad goodbyes. Fast forwards to the current set-up I started to experiment but nothing seems to work. I am expecting serendipity but when will I know if that is serendipity? Will serendipity lead the way and bring the perfect person in front of me? I am an auditor or just call it inspector, I check the movements, action, motions and others. I have set the qualities and expectation I would want for the person but will that person like me back? That is the uncertain question I dare to ask. If that person ask me back then everything clicks, I will still perform a continuous test. And if I see cracks then Its all over. I ask someone while walking on the pavement; Will you be angry if your other half cheat on you? The response is out standing.. My friend said without hesitation that hearts will be broken but definitely chances will be given. In my perspective, its is like safety that will always be non-negotiable. The song I hear today reminds of the every people’s experiences. I get so excited hearing sorrowful arrogance inside a song, it’s like they are boasting their misery and they are glad they moved on and experience the unimaginative scenario that only the strongest and willing people to be vulnerable can experience. Someday I might risk. Risk on the person I believe would be mine; Risk on a person that would wants me for the longest time.
Oh its my turn for the doctor’s checkup lets continue this the next time.
#checkup
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